Simplicity is turning out to be alright

We play so many games in life... I find that I try to be the "me" of the moment. More of a chameleon if you want to call it that. However, through many different things in life. For instance as I call "the change" (becoming a mommy), getting married, getting a teaching job, buying a house, buying a car, getting into debt, working hard to get out of debt, broken hearts and falling in love has brought me to be who I am. It is so refreshing to know ME. The other day, I put it on paper. I am a female. I am 26. I am a mother of 2. I am a wife. I am a teacher. I want to be skinny:), I like to eat. I'm happy. I have gone "green", but hate the term "going green". I wish I would have been a hippy in the 70's. I would love to live in a tree house in the middle of the rain forest. I could live on fruits and vegetables. I miss Nana. I love my mom. I figure she'll read this but I'll say it anyways... you were right. Not about anything specific, but looking back you were right. And I'll put money on it that I'll tell my babies "because I said so."I'm not good with money. I hate cleaning house. I love music. I hate people with a lack of common sense. I know that I need to soften up a little bit. It isnt a front. I'm just being honest. I will win this weight loss competition. I'm independant, but need people. I want to homeschool, but I know it isnt what God wants. If we take out God's light, there is no way for them to find the light in pure darkness. I want to shelter my children. But i know that God wants them to shed His light on the world. I want to be safe in my little world, but I know God wants us to do some sort of missions... Wow there is so much more. But for now, I'm done.

When does everything make sense?

Ok...so.. here I am and I don't know exactly how truly excited I am to blog everything I am going through. But...hey what the heck. God knows vulnerability (is that a word?) is the best feeling in the world. Let me fill you in about where I am in life. It is Nov. 22 and I have a 6 month and 15 day old baby boy named Corban James. Fun and sweet baby boy. He did in fact receive his mother's delightful temper. My mother is finding great joy in sweet revenge. Kinda sick right?:) Im sure Ill be saying the same thing in 25 years! I also have a 2 1/2 year old little girl named Adelyn Avery. I have one word...WOW! I love my little lady with all my soul and being... but there is no way to prepare anyone for twos and potty training. The only getting me through is the fact that they (and their father) are my reason. I love my babies with all of who am I... and that brings me to the other thing no one can teach you or prepare you for... the indescribeable love I have for my undeserved children.
Talk with you later.